Monday, October 20, 2008

I'm afraid of heights, and an award!

You know, I think I may have mentioned that before. In fact, I'm quite sure I did here. So can someone tell me why I purposely put myself in a situation where I feel like I'm going to pass out? Or fall down off the side of the mountain?

Yesterday we went to Cerro San Cristobal. And you can ride cable cars up to the top to see the statue. Well, like I said earlier, I am scared of high places. I am. I don't know how or why this fear developed, it just did. Maybe I need to see a hyponotist or something. I don't know. But I did agree to go on this little excursion, and I know my dh called me out on it while in the cable car.

He could see my face wrought with discomfort. He could also see my eyes as they didn't really stray too far from my son's face, who was sitting directly in front of me. You see, I'm OK sitting there. As long as I don't look down, I'm fine. I felt fine. Mostly. I was just acutely aware of our cable car dangling back and forth from a thin cable, I was thinking of what it might feel like to crash down to the earth. And I wondered how long it would take for paramedics to respond. For them to be called in the first place, and then drive through town, and up the side of the mountain . How long until they found our car amongst the trees. I wondered how bad we would be hurt. I felt fairly sure that we would all survive, but I still worried that we might fall.

Yes. I know. I'm a bit off kilter. But hey. It's my irrational fear we are dealing with. And you see, by me even going, I am and was dealing with it. I wasn't letting the whole fear thing, rule me. So we went. It's not to say that I didn't have a few irrational thoughts in my head. I was even thankful that we were enclosed in the tomb of hot sticky air. For certainly I would have had a whole new set of fears about falling out of the seat and over the railing somehow.

So like I was saying, dh called me out. He could see that I was not at my 100% comfort level. He said, "I know why you came here today." And I was all like, "Oh? You do, do you..." And then he said, "You don't even like this, you just did it so that you can take pictures for your blog." Busted. Well. I have no arguments there. I did it for my readers. (And for my mom.) As I'm certain she would appreciate the pictures.

So here are a few from yesterday. The first one is me, deceivingly happy and unafraid. (And Alexa is holding my specs. So that I may appear to look cooler without them on.)

Look how stinkin' high we were! I'm so proud of me. I did it! I managed the whole trip unscathed.

And last but not least, I received this award the other day from Patrice over at Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman.

Thank you, thank you! Patrice you made my day! :) And along with it, I am to name 6 things that make me happy, and then pass it along. Here are those things:

1. My kids. (most of the time. )

2. Chocolate. (all of the time.)

3. watching Grey's Anatomy, uniterrupted.

4. finding a good sale.

5. Great fitting jeans.

6. The day that I fly back to the United States. (It will make me overwhelmingly, like I have yet to experience, happy.)

And I am going to share this super award with my friend Stephanie of Serenity Now! Serenity Now! I have enjoyed reading her blog very much. You see, she has a teenage daughter. And when I read it, I can see what life might be like to have a teenager in the house. (yikes!) Although I am nowhere near ready to even think about those kinds of things, I enjoy her stories. Hop on over and take a peek. She's super nice!

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Casey said...

Oh girl I am with you! I hate heights! In the cable car on Santorini I had my head between my knees the whole time. You are brave! Great pics too!

Ashley said...

Well you certainly do have us deceived. What a beautiful picture! You don't look scared at all! Thanks for braving the heights just for us!!!

365steph said...

Heights - just lookin at those pics I want to throw up. A sharp pain goes from my tail-bone all the way up to my neck and I feel my body stiffen as I look at them. I don't think I could have done it. Ok, well I did go into the Space Needle in Seattle, but I was not interested in looking down, only wondering HOW TO GET DOWN. I think I did it for the kids.

And the award - Thank you!!!! You're so sweet! I am so excited! I love it! I really needed a "pick me up" today! You're the best!

Chelle said...

That. is. high. I am terrified of heights. And amazed that you did it! Way to go!

Congrats on your award, sweetie!!

Julie said...

Your adventure looks like fun! BTW, I LOVE my kids, chocolate, finding a good sale, & great fitting jeans, too! I've never seen Grey's Anatomy. Although it has been highly recommended to me.

Dawn said...

You really were up high!! Great pictures!

Susan said...

Yay for conquering your fear. What an amazing view!

Patrice said...

The things we do in the name of blogging.. crazy right?! Good for you for conquering your fear!!

And glad you loved your award! I enjoyed giving it you.. I'll have to go check out your recipient!

Anonymous said...

Awwww. You guys, Uhm.. I mean ladies (ok, so there are some guys out here too!) look like you are having so much fun on this blogging world place that yall have all created!
Very cool.

Like the pics!! YAY for being brave!

Your Sis

Vicki said...

How about this????!!!!!!!

I thought that I would check this out. I had some time and a faster computer ~ here at the library!!

Tips??? Help??? comments???

Where do you put all those cute little thingies???

Love ya!

Brenda said...

I found your blog on mamasphere. I can relate to Flying Back to the United States as making you happy. As an American living in Paraguay, I am ALWAYS happy to fly back to the United States!!!